Moment of Spark.

I am lying on my bed, thinking about the way life has turned. From the streets of ahmedabad to highways of USA, from vadapav to burger and from
"mom..do this!!" to " Oh Crap..!! I need to do this."

Change is inevitable. But what makes this change a reason for living? While we are constantly negotiating the way we are dealing with life, What is that one thing that keeps us alive?
That one thing for me is " S P A R K".
 We all have that one spark which not only illuminates our lives but also enlightens our whole life.There are times when we can think of nothing. Just a Question mark.!!
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Why?
Why life led us to this point? Why we can't live in our past where we used to have fun? Why our silly fights can't be continued? Why we just can't pass our exams by late night studies ? Why we can't wait for the last exam?
(Especially expected fun after our last exam)
Why we need to carry so much burden of responsibilities?

And there comes this spark...The moment of Spark in our life.

We can't stay in our past because we don't need to be there. Past is something cherishable, Future is something worth dreaming..But Present is something worth Living.

There comes times when we can't find a single reason to survive. But that is the time we need to identify this SPARK.
For me this spark is the only thing that keeps us living.

After all dark days there will be a shining day. SO what to do until we reach that day? Wait for that day?
NO..!!! Just illuminate your dark days by this "SPARK"

Things change,people change and life changes. But what is persistent is this SPARK.
Whenever things go worst,whenever there is no one besides me, Whenever I feel that Life has not a single reason to live this one Spark makes me alive.
Spark of winning!
Spark of accomplishing my dream!
Spark of fighting with all the odds of life.!
Spark of Living!!!
I know I am exaggrating the facts that Life is not so easy to handle.! But. trust me It Is.!!!
We complicate the things by giving it the name of " trouble" and just forget that the solution lies within ourselves.
So what do I mean by this Spark?
Is it any magical thing? Any thing that we need to work hard to get? Is it a thing like any power for which we need to concentrate hard enough?

No...and in a way yes..!
This Spark for me is a belief..." FAITH ..HOPE ..BELIEF"
Faith in our supernatural powers.
Hope for the best future.
And belief that things are going best.

We feel nervous and hopeless when things go worst and feel alone. But there is one energy which (who) will never let us be alone. He pushes us to the extent of hopelessness just to make us realize that before the  brightest
day there will be the darkest night.

So by the spark that comes at this moment we can win the battle. This spark can only help us to survive in the darkest night.
And we soon realize that this spark was nothing but the first spark of the brightest day..:)

So let's just find our SPARKS and enlighten not only our lives but also the whole LIFE around us...

Cheers..!!! Have a sparkling time ahead...:)

Too Far...Too Near...:)

I open my messages and wait for your message, I open my facebook and wait for your notification, I open my call list and wait for your call. Every little thing you did ,every little fight we had, every little joy we had is becoming precious to me now.

"FRIENDS"

Isn't it great that someone who is once unknown to you , becomes as special as a family member? Someone whom you meet in life after your family and yet they become your family?

Friendship ..The word that brings magic in itself. The one to whom you can speak off anythings, do any nonsense, be like whatever you wish to be.. Cries...Laughs...Hugs...Fights...All small matters those have nothing logical , but still to fight for it .:)

When I came Far from you , I was afraid ..I was afraid if you would leave my hand now, if you would stop fighting with me now, if you would stop remembering me now...But, to my great surprise , I found you being there..Being there to wipe my tears..Being there to hold my hand, to pet my back, to push me up, to let me fight...That is what which makes me feel , it's better sometimes to be far from your dear ones so that you can establish a new era of feelings, a new era of understanding, a new era of FRIENDSHIP.

Somethings are better seen clearer from distance. And so is the Friendship. Now it doesn't matter whether u remember me or not, whether u ping me or not, whether you take time out for me or not. All I know is , whenever I am in trouble , you will be there. All I know is , you will be there to cheer my success , to pet my back , to cherish beautiful moments of my life. <3

It's true , now we can't fight like before, we can't talk like before, we can't have fun like before...
But...
We can love each other miles apart...We can know that true feelings are never separated from distance...We can know that there is no place for misunderstandings to spoil our precious relations..We can care for each other...It is confirmed that our stupid, silly reasons of fighting were just for getting attention..;)
We can know that being apart is the best way for getting closer..

And above all.. we can know that Friendship doesn't need any call, message or notification...It just a needs a magical feeling..That healing feeling which can heal all the pains ...It is just about having true feelings that matters...and nothing else matters now....

And so..."Being too FAR from you , I am becoming CLOSER to you."

Cheers to our Friendship...:) <3

LIFE IN USA
The first day I stepped in USA. The difference was felt from the air only . The first thing came into my mind; "Where am I?" . From the land of culture I have stepped a foot on a land where there is not even a second for thinking about anyone else. Where everyone is living their "American Dream" , I am here for pursuing my dreams.
"My dreams"...
Not so fancy , not so cool , but my little sweet dreams of having my life revived in USA.
But things are not as cool as they seem in their first place..
Missing home can not be replaced by the roaming in USA.
Mom's food can't be replaced by burgers and pizzas;
Dad's care can't be replaced by professor's teaching;
and above all INDIA can't be replaced by USA.

Things went on worst , I lost myself somewhere. The killing spirit had gone somewhere and loneliness started killing me.

But, then comes a light, an inner voice , and a friend..:)

I am the girl with killing spirit , "Killer Girl"..
So what if I cry on any small matter , That's what I am!!!
People call it emotional fool , but I call it bunch of feelings...
People use your feelings in USA , but SO what???

Here I am; again with the same smile; with same confidence. So what if I am afraid of walking alone? I know I ll fly alone one day. So what if I cry alone? I know I will laugh at my cries one day. So what if I am not enough confident right now? I know I will conquer all the things one day.
So what if I can't trust anyone right now? I will make everyone love me one day.
So what people don't like the way I am? I will love myself enough one day.

I am here to fulfill all my promises ; commitment and above all " to cherish each and every moment of my life."

I am taking steps , small small steps , but I will fly one day with both arms open and with full confidence...:)

Till then..." I will make a living out of whatever I have"...:)